hate me :(

A day that I always hate is going to be when my report be given to my parents..
it's going to be okay if my mom take it, but if it comes to my dad
he'll be so in rage, like everything I do is always wrong and wrong.
how can I make him appreciate me?
how can I make him trust me that I can do it my self, instead of hiring someone to teach me ?
I'm tired dad, gettin yelled by you, being underpreassured by you.
I had enough dad.

I had my own life, I had my own path.
Why you always makes me like underdog dad?
I already being underdog in my school, and now you, the important person of my life
hate me dad because I'm imperfect

Deep down my thought and feelings i said ur so annoying~

you see people's characteristic is a dead price for them means they can't change it, it always like inside them which like a price tag to them...

as you see i had a fought because that people's characteristic now i really felt that she didn't even change a little  bit, still as the same as selfish i she can but for honest i'm the most selfish girl she maybe even met, i realize today is the day that i notice she is still the same as several years ago~

how pitiful my friend, she is still the same when the day is the same...

chapter 15 :: i love you now and later

hari ini ketemu ko denny lhoo :}

i missed him so much...
seeing him, talking with him, joke around, let him know me for who truly i am makes me feel loved

kko baik banget ... he taught me well
                       i won't mind to wait him hehehehe

kko denny and his jokes ... ckckckc
    
     sharing our minds ... but i didn't dare to ask him bout his love problem... heheheh
too scared ...

i must be a better girl for him...
             i like to be feminime but how?
aaaaahhh so frustating wkwkwkw

chapter 14 :: Emptyness.. (hope not misspell any words)

it is 16 may.. 15 days after we decided to focus on our work and duties..
and I'm tellin' you I am so depressed, so frustrated...
can I just stop from this ugly momment?

every night i just thinking bout him..
never and ever a little slicky idea to left him..
and this thing is just came and came and came
a feeling that need attention and affective...

slowly this feelings getting eager to conquer my heart...
kko denny i missed you...
this heart needs you, this girl need you...
i hope he felt the same way either...  

chapter 13 :: sweet love sweet crashing love..

ko denny...
kko.. :'(

I remember you...
you are special, kko buat aku berarti...
aku sayang kko...
tapi kenapa yah everything is just and must be end now?

aku cuma bisa berdoa aja...
hope kko know what I felt...
aku sayang and I can't let go...

aku cuma bisa kasih kko semangat tiap hari dan doa buat kamu
aku harap 2 tahun ini cepat berakhir..
i need you
i want to meet you everyday...
I love you kko :"(
can't hide my feelings that i missed you soo much

chapter 12 :: the down and goin' down

can't tell somethin' that outside my mind...
all I think is just about kko denny...
why he's so ignorant?? khuu...
make me difficult to melt his heart.. what should i do?
my step dad said that i was to early to trust him..
i won't listen.. i won't i trust him and it's a month we're together...

God bless me, God make me strong...
God tell me the truth bout him...
i love him as much i need him...

chapter 11 :: about the torn tears and heart

my heart just feels so amazing waktu kko ada buat aku....
waktu kko bilang sayang dan perhatiin aku...

Tapi Jesus, kenapa kebalikan sama mamaku?
mamaku ga tau dah maunya apa...
aku tuh udah 16 tahun Jesus..
aku tahu aku masih belum cukup dewasa, tapi Jesus aku juga bukan anak kecil
Gimana lagi aku harus ngomong ke mama Jesus kalo aku tuh mau ikut menderita bersama Jesus?
Jesus baru kali ini aku bimbang Jesus..
menangis memang percuma,

coba nanti aku curhat sama kko denny agustian sayang...
dde ga tau lagi harus gmna prince sayang..
dd capek...

What's the biggest risk you've ever taken? Are you glad you took it or do you regret it?

being a Christian w/o my parents permission...
and i do really glad... cuz i know walking in God's path is beautiful

Ask me anything